In the last couple of months my life has changed so much.. And I must admit I have been having a lot of fun. I have been socialising a lot, having lots of laughs and it feels great. But one thing that stays the same is the fact that no matter what I am doing, who I am with, whether I am happy or sad I can't help but think My life should be different. I should be a stay at home Mummy to my baby boys. Who knows if Jade and I would have stayed together had the twins survived.. Maybe I would be a stuggling single parent instead of a carefree single girl. Or maybe we would still be together and planning our next baby.. All the what ifs.. What if my babies had survived. One thing I know for sure though is I would give ANYTHING to know the what ifs... I would give anything to have my sons here. Taite and Seth, Mummy misses you every single day and that is one thing that will NEVER change..
ETA: I just found this quote and it rings the truth!
Just because everything is different doesn't mean anything has changed. ~Irene Peter
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Rescued? No.
6 years ago
Heya Blessed - as much as your heartache is plain in your blog, it's nice to see you can admit to having some fun.... I am proud of you. All those questions you have will remain unanswered my friend... but one thing is for sure - your boys are just gorgeous, handsome little tykes and your enduring love for them and sadness at their departure, honours them every single day.
ReplyDeleteSeeya girl. Dory.